Deion has no internet access so I post for her. She sent this.

3,4,10 Deion’s letter for blog

I don’t want to cause further pain for Dennis Brooks’ family, my family or anyone else who has been affected by all this. Regardless of what I say in writing this I know people will be affected and I know the hatred everyone holds toward me.
Yes, the Brooks family is the victims. I don’t even consider myself worthy of their forgiveness. I never will until I can change what happened that horrible night and that is not possible. During my entire incarceration I’ve tormented myself to find the courage to reach out to the Brooks family. With the advice of my attorneys, family and friends I was instructed that it would not be the appropriate thing to do. So being the coward I am I never did until now.
Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my children which remind me of my responsibility that led to the death of Dennis. I don’t know why I receive the privilege to talk to my children when Mr. and Mrs. Brooks will never hear the voice of their son again. All I can say is that I love my children and God’s mercy gives me the strength to continue on.
No one likes to relive the past especially when it has been tragic. I’m not trying to justify the murder of Dennis by what happened to me in the past. Reliving my past has led me to months of depression and physical sickness. It’s not something I want to do but I’ve got to understand how I got myself in the situation of that July night and why I didn’t have the courage to prevent it from happening.
It’s not easy to tell a parent that you’ve been sexually abused by family members and it’s not easy for the parent to deal with, especially if it’s a close relative that denies it happened. This causes conflict and families are forced to choose sides. This does not mean I hate my parents or anyone in my family. I have forgiven everyone who has hurt me. In the past year I agreed to visit with my cousin who raped me and I told him I had forgiven him for what happened. We had several nice visits and I do plan to visit with him more in the future.
Again my past abuse does not justify this senseless murder. It helps me to better understand why I could not control the situation that July night and why I let men dominate my life. With understanding who I am I can admit who I was and forgive myself and continue to try and prevent my children from becoming the person I was.
My daughter and husband are not defending the person I was. They are defending the person I am today. I give my deepest remorse and regrets foremost to the Brooks family and all the others that are affected also to my children and family and others for stigmatizing the family name.

Deion Harris