Mother In Prison, Mother Can't See
I wanted Savannah to do something fun so I got tickets to Nysic, a group of young boys singing hip hop or pop music. They were having a concert in Memphis and I got two tickets, one for Savannah and one for Angie, my brother Lin’s wife. I figured Savannah would enjoy it most with her. Tickets were $30 each, I sent money for gas, about $20, money for food, About $20, and$50 spending money for Savannah to buy a T-shirt at the concert and other things. They had money for film and I asked for pictures both before and after they went. Drew did not want to go and asked for the money just to spend himself so I sent him $50 I think. It was about $300 total, a months wages at the time ‘cause I was working lots of overtime at Tenn Care. They never took pictures. I got nothing. Savannah told me of her trip next time I saw her. I still wanted pictures. My photo album is all I have. I don’t get to see the kids doing things and growing up.
Deion, visitation 2004
Deion, visitation 2004
posted by Tim at 10:18 PM
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I just prayed for JB during my break. His angry words hurt me deep inside. However he has a right to be angry. I just hope it doesn’t consume him. He can’t get past his anger to face the truth. Maybe one day he will find peace within himself. I don’t like the truth about my past either. It’s not the life I wanted, it’s the lifestyle that was given me since I was a small child. The truth is very hard to deal with sometimes. The truth is I’ve never killed anyone. I’ve been convicted of felony murder. In our lawless judicial system innocent people are convicted of crimes they didn’t commit every day. The truth is Dennis Brooks didn’t choose to die and he didn’t choose his fate. The truth is I didn’t choose my childhood and not everyone deals with traumatic experiences the same way, even when they’re adults. Dennis Brooks had a lot of people who loved him. I’m a mother of two children who love me regardless of my past. I may never get out of prison but I have peace because I know I haven’t killed anyone. And as hard as this might be to deal with, Jesus died on the cross for my sins and I’ll spend eternity in heaven even with Dennis Brooks. I’m blessed to have a wonderful husband who knows everything about my past and still loves me. Being raped didn’t make me do anything. It’s the fact that I didn’t fight back and defend myself during the many times I was raped. Therefore, I didn’t fight back or defend myself that awful night. Deion
GOD chooses who goes to Hell... not JB.
Deion's Daughter
-Savannah
Who is this "J.B." a$$hole? I have read about this story, and watched the story on prison wives. I was inspired enough to look up Deion and found this blog. I don't see how she could have stopped the killing of Dennis, I think she would have ended up dead as well. I find it incredibly sad that she was victimized at such a young age, and even worse that the sister seems to find humor in it even now. Why didn't she help her little sister when she was so young? I am heartbroken for the family of Dennis, and I am also so sorry for the entire horror of that night. I have been in situations that turned into horrible scenarios, and I could not change what was happening,Out of fear, and just shock at what was going on. I would like to write to Tim, and Deion. If I knew how to reach either of them. God Bless you and your family, I hope the family of the Victim knows that you couldnt have helped.
JB you need to ask God to forgive you for so much hate and anger you carry in your heart.You have no right to critisize Deion you were not there that night and I just hope if you were ever to be in a situation such as Deion was that you will be able to escape it.I do send my most highest of respects and sympathies to Dennis Brooks family he had no right to die that night as he did and I pray that god blesses you all. Theres so much hate in society these days Deion and I pray that you allow God to continue to be apart of your life because he is the only one that can help you through this I hope to correspond with you soon to share positive thoughts and to be a friend May God Bless you Tim savvanah and Drew.....Love,From San Antonio Texas
First off I was born raised in Tennessee. And "maybe" parts of what your saying is true, Not all of it....
When I first began reading, I found it to be leaving to much out to be able to decide what the facts are. The more I read the more I found a lot of bs. I'm 53 yrs old, and was reared in a small town in TN, about as poor as anyone could be. And I can tell you or anyone else that TN is no different than any other State as far as condoning rape. There is not a State in the USA that I've not been to, including Washington. Being poor, and uneducated has nothing to do with Sex, drugs, rape, etc etc. Like I said I was reared in just that. NOBODY ever raped me, forced themselves on me. I chose when/where I had sex for the first time. My sister is two yrs older than me, and her husband has never ever tempted to do anything least bit of wrong toward me period! To imply that simply because of being poor, uneduated, etc is the reason people do morbid things described in this is STUPID. Nope sorry didn't happen the way described. A little girl what 9 yrs or so taking care of her Mom, doesn't have hate in her heart the way it was described. Nope don't happen that way. Sorry, you might want to try to make yourself believe that but no way.
Can't get this whole thing off my mind...
One thing that really bugs me is the blame game. Blaming is not going to allow you to move forward. All your doing is sweeping it under.
Sweet Savannah: God don't decide who goes to hell, he loves all of us, wants us all to be with him. He gives us a choice. It's up to "us" what choice we make. God is a loving God.
We all make choices, and when this young innocent man was cold blooded murdered, that was a choice that three people were involved in making. Right/Wrong it is the truth. I don't believe for one min that any one of them couldn't have chosen to not do it, not be a part of it, etc. To say cuz you were abused, raped, etc is why you chose to part of a cruel cold blooded murder is bs. There have been people that's been abused, neglected, raped, tortured, etc etc. Do they choose to be out doing drugs, drinking, having sex,etc, and eventually Murder? Not to mention leaving her babies with her parents (the place where she was so unloved)? Yes it's choices, she made tons of bad ones. Like it or not. A Mother don't leave her babies where she feels they're not gonna get cared for, protected, etc. This woman says in a nutshell she was not cared for, she was neglected, and very unprotected. Why would she want to put her babies in a situation like that? Why, that is just CRAZY! Women that have been in similar situations normally become overprotective mothers. A dear friend is just that. She was reared in a very bad envirorment. Common Sense goes a long way when determining truth from fiction. LOGIC!
Hello Audrey, your comment sent me to revise the heading on my blog. I need to say "not guilty of felony murder." Of something else, who knows? Of logic; murder trials run on emtion not logic. As for the crime, another woman remarked; " If I had just seen a man murder someone and they still had the gun in their hand I'd ask them 'what do you want me to do and can I fix you dinner?'" Sure, there was overstatement there but is it logical to believe a woman would overpower the man or argue with him? As for getting away, Walter told her to "follow." The car she drove was an automatic and reverse gear was out. It took the men to push it and turn around. Not the greatest get away car.
What is logical in these circumstance?
Tim
Tim:
First off, you took what I was trying so hard to make clear wrong. I was not thinking of the night of the Murder. Tim, when I read this kind of thing (and trust me, I've read thousands), I try to read all of it with a totally open mind. Then, reason it out, logically. You see, when I ran stumbled across this, I wanted to know your wife, her life, the way she was reared, likes/dislikes, her inspirations, what she was like before/after, etc. The incidents that she speaks of... I don't feel is all true, no. There are to many things that don't add up. And I feel certain that any shrink would tell ya the same thing. Not to say some of it isn't true. Remember the time she wanted to rescue her nephew? There is a huge hint there. When started reading, I read each blog, with the hopes of understanding. The more I read, the more I knew a lot is fiction.
The Murder: You say emotion... True to a degree. Problem there is we're still human beings, with all kinds of emotions. And no I don't believe she didn't have the guts to do something to try to help. What happened to the young girl that tried to rescue her sister/nephew. I've read situations of women/men being in horrible enviroments for days/months, and in some cases years that will act to protect another person, animal, etc. She enticed the young man, knowing he wss going to be hurt. Sorry it just simply doesn't ring true. I found these blogs are quite self serving. Dunno Tim, I'd like to say I totally believe every word but... I don't. My heart bleeds for her children, and especially her daughter. I'm afraid if she doesn't find some kind of closure, and peace soon she's going to allow this to consume her. She needs to free her self from this. Love her Mother, respect her for what she is, accept her, the choices she's made, and move forward with her life. Until she does she cannot move forward. It's almost like she's in prison with her Mother, and that is so unfair to a child!
Hello Audrey, Thank you for the response. A self serving blog? I should hope so or this is quite a waste of time. I have not followed your logic and you tried so hard to make it clear. I guess we are not communicating and on that we can agree.
Is life logical? I thought so once. After retirement from the airline I served four years on a school board. I found logic failed in the education of children. No, I no longer believe life is logical. My presence in Deion’s life is not logical. It is pure emotion. If you have ever been in love, you know that.
I left a message less than 2 hours ago , I would like to reread it . Signed Tell It Like It Is
Tim , you are an incredible man ,and shame on your family for not standing by your side , they are self centered and selfish ,more concerned for the family name and what THEY wanted for your life than YOUR own happiness ... good for you that you stand by your wife Teresa that you so dearly love and your belief in her . Teresa paid for HER part in the crime and you could not be MORE right when you said she had NO choice but to go along with the program that night , she admitted her part in the crime , she paid the price for her crime and NOW its time to give her space in prison to someone else who so deserves it , NOW if Teresa would have been born RICH and FAMOUS we would not be here on this site talking about this crime as our justice system would have been paid off like the O.J. Simpson case and her hands would have been washed period ... I so agree with you on the fact that she was railroaded to be a part of this crime BUT this was her fault for hanging out with the wrong crowd that night so please don't say it was her childhood that put her behind bars when actually it was herself being there and PART of that group that night that put her where she is today and YES I do believe you are right in saying she was forced into being a part of this crime ... I do hope the justice system lets her go free as I think she could do a tremendous service to the teenagers of this broken country of ours by becoming a speaker NATION WIDE in behalf of the awful crimes committed today by teenagers who have nothing better to do than do drugs and kill people for the fun of it as a matter of fact I believe that should be a part of her probation flying from one city to the next telling HER story ... I think she has plenty to say and I think she has what it takes to reach these kids and GET them to LISTEN ... and the reason I am even on this site giving my opinion is because of what she had to say about her story on Prison Wives and I was VERY impressed !!! I hope you continue your quest for the truth and I hope you get plenty of support from friends (forget your family ) and people like myself ... I have asked Teresa to become one of my face book friends and Tim please tell Teresa she did a tremendous job as a mother !!! Her daughter is a beautiful young girl with a very BRIGHT future , I hope the television as given her daughter EXPOSURE and someone will give her an opportunity to do good things with her life as I can see she is so smart !!! Smart enough to know God Decides not people like J.B. Signed Tell It Like It Is
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